Wow it's certainly been a while. What can I say, I have no real excuse for neglecting this blog. I could use the old "kids, husband(yes, they also do tend to take up some time!), real life getting in the way excuse but hey I'll face it there is always some time for jotting down thoughts. Which is exactly what I should be doing, using said blog as an escape as such. Which I, from now on, will endeavour to do.
2012 is here and what can I say?. Another year, another 12 months, another,hey 366 days - hello leap year! of the same usual shit(pardon ze French)?. Nope, not this year. This year is a year of change and development for myself and my family. I've just been accepted into uni and while this may be just another ordinary matter for some, not for me. Excited, worried and scared pretty much sums up my feelings of late.
Massively excited yes!. Returning to something which I love, I did a one year uni course in 09 which was very part time and before I had my second child.
Worried that I'm not going to have the resources to cope with it all, namely babysitters, daycare for the kids.
Scared I'm not going to cope with all of it at all. The full time study load on top of all that I'm already faced with on a daily, weekly, monthly, yearly basis could be a little to much. Even as I type this I have kids crawling all over me begging for attention.
A little scared I made the wrong choice even though Nursing is what I've wanted to do for a few years now. Took me long enough to realise that but that's another story!.
Worried I'm going to collapse one day in a exhausted, worn out heap after its all got to me. Ok, this may be a little far fetched but hey it could happen, here's hoping not!.
I can do this, I will do this - repeat mantra on a daily basis!. I know I can, I believe I can. I wouldn't have applied if I thought I couldn't. I am a woman(hear me roar??), wife, mother so anythings possible.
And I guess this is what this blog will be for me from now on. An outlet, an escape, something different and enjoyable from my usual everyday chaos so to speak. And even if I do just use it for an outlet of frustration and a small bid for sanity, you wont mind right? right??
This could, or could not, possibly be me in the next 3 to 4 years!